Friday, September 08, 2006
my wound deepen with the dash of each passing dayfeel more and more useless about myself after each working day
i started to question my own capabilities and relationship-building skills
eventually, just wind up feeling plainly lousy about myself after an entire day of what has been said about and to me.
overwhelmed with multiple double standards attacks, prejudice and biasness that makes me so rejected and demoralised to move on with my work.
No doubt having the heart of perseverance to wake up and get to work daily but i never felt so rejected in a working environment before.
me being nice is a minus point to my boss;
being mean and bitchy deem to his liking.
daddy god, i need your strength to move on everyday.
all my battles you have single-handedly won for me, im sure.
i do not know what good is coming out of this,
but i know You are faithful.
may not have a someone to speak my soul to,
only You daddy jesus i can depend.
im such a different person at work,
i barely smile or speak to people sometimes,
coz im just constantly smacked with scarsams.
Even part-timers are not showing me much respect,
neither are a-week old interns, but certainly are getting into the favour book of my boss.
end of the day, i cant help but question "Why me?".
God i know you are faithful,
stick with me every single moment,
hold me when my legs are too exhausted to continue the walk,
catch me before i run out of breath and collapse.
Teach me to decline all human's thoughts and opionons towards me,
and simply just cast my sight to You.
Spare me from all the fiery darts according to your will.
Allow nothing but all Your glory and goodness shine through your child all the days of her life.
Melly spun on 12:44 PM.
