Wednesday, September 06, 2006
just caught the moive "The Devil Wears Prada"; for me, it was a 2 thumbs up flick.
kinda reminded me to be of good cheer and faith in the area of my work.
it's a struggle to go work everyday.
i start questioning about my capabilities and relationship-building skills each and every single work day, every waking moment of it.
resent the fact that i get demoralisedly curshed when im being critic by everyone else in the office, from the way i speak - trying to impersonate and tease my "act-cute" voice, to pushing shity jobs to me to do, to just speaking lowly of me and embarrassed me in front of everyone else.
god, why do i have to go through all these that i have to undergo - i often question.
i do not how to react to all these things going on simultaneously, teach me.
i have so many questions , desperately awaiting for answers.
life seemed to have slipped into the dark shadows where it seemed that daddy god had forgotten about me and hence the neglience of my happiness.
it's really crap the dumb enemy is trying to stir up within my thoughts.
i may be hard pressed on the surface, but deep within i know Daddy God still blesses me ever so abundantly.
i need not look at my outward situations to grade if im blessed or not.
i am blessed even when situations dont change instanteously.
what topped the icing of the cake is this;
as i was about to head into my room, i heard this wail of cries coming from the room next to mine - which is my parents'.
it was my mother crying -- in acute pain.
her headache is way inbearable for her that got her flooding in tears.
it made her paralysed to move from her neck upwards.
it was a terrifying scene seeing your mother lying there helplessly, wailing and crying in pain and you cant do much to help.
within, i was frantically praying for her healing.
really thank god, the pain just subside and went away, allowing her to fall asleep and get some rest.
part of me just wanted to pick up the phone and call someone to confide with. and i realised i have no one i could turn to.
my friend made a comment about me yesterday when we went out,
"i realised that you have very few friends coz you hardly received any calls while we were out."
friendships turnover rates are very high.
but i have my best friend who'll come to my comfort when i call upon the name.
my dear friend, Jesus.
Thanks for your everlasting faithul love.
With <3,
melly
kinda reminded me to be of good cheer and faith in the area of my work.
it's a struggle to go work everyday.
i start questioning about my capabilities and relationship-building skills each and every single work day, every waking moment of it.
resent the fact that i get demoralisedly curshed when im being critic by everyone else in the office, from the way i speak - trying to impersonate and tease my "act-cute" voice, to pushing shity jobs to me to do, to just speaking lowly of me and embarrassed me in front of everyone else.
god, why do i have to go through all these that i have to undergo - i often question.
i do not how to react to all these things going on simultaneously, teach me.
i have so many questions , desperately awaiting for answers.
life seemed to have slipped into the dark shadows where it seemed that daddy god had forgotten about me and hence the neglience of my happiness.
it's really crap the dumb enemy is trying to stir up within my thoughts.
i may be hard pressed on the surface, but deep within i know Daddy God still blesses me ever so abundantly.
i need not look at my outward situations to grade if im blessed or not.
i am blessed even when situations dont change instanteously.
what topped the icing of the cake is this;
as i was about to head into my room, i heard this wail of cries coming from the room next to mine - which is my parents'.
it was my mother crying -- in acute pain.
her headache is way inbearable for her that got her flooding in tears.
it made her paralysed to move from her neck upwards.
it was a terrifying scene seeing your mother lying there helplessly, wailing and crying in pain and you cant do much to help.
within, i was frantically praying for her healing.
really thank god, the pain just subside and went away, allowing her to fall asleep and get some rest.
part of me just wanted to pick up the phone and call someone to confide with. and i realised i have no one i could turn to.
my friend made a comment about me yesterday when we went out,
"i realised that you have very few friends coz you hardly received any calls while we were out."
friendships turnover rates are very high.
but i have my best friend who'll come to my comfort when i call upon the name.
my dear friend, Jesus.
Thanks for your everlasting faithul love.
With <3,
melly
Melly spun on 1:58 PM.
