Saturday, August 26, 2006
".. You had a bad dayYou're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day.."
had a terrified crazy day at work.
being pressed by boss at the start of the day till it's too suffocating for me to breathe.
he seems to gain thrills out of pressurising me.
nevermind if you dont trust me, but dont insult me.
constructive citrics but never meaningless scarsams.
i dont believe in working for him anymore.
though he may be a believer too,
but surely our beliefs dont cross the same path.
why did i have to tear in front of these people?
isnt that a sign of weakness and incompentence?
which only allows them to have another something else to bitch about me.
as much as i dont wish to be so pessmistic,
im beginning to be slowly demoralised.
work makes me feel like a lesser person.
it's the posion of speech which kills me and my morale.
sincerely tried my hardest to fight back those tears of shattered trust.
tried washing my cup filled with condemnation as often as possible,
but still; why am i feeling what im feeling now?
then here, there's an intern who has recently been converted to a full-timer;
greatly loved by everyone in the office.
i know my boss personally favour her too.
you know, when pastor prince always mentioned about the favoured one who may never get things right, but still greatly favoured?
yea, she's the one.
and it's me who the one who gets disfavoured. hee.
having know my establishment of righteousness in christ,
why do i have to undergo what i have to go through at work every single day?
every day at work, im constantly made to feel lesser of myself.
of course, there're sunshiny days, but mostly rainy, gloomy days;
as much as i've been trusting Daddy God to a much better day with each passing day.
i know that though i dont see any changes to my situation now even after my numerous prayers,
manifestations are already taking place when my prayer(s) are made. amen. =)
Melly spun on 3:21 PM.
